Asking for communication is almost as horrible as asking for their last ounce of hope. I’ll never understand what it’s like to not fear for my life when anyone shows the littlest interest, because let’s be honest.. it won’t last more than a week. When the “honeymoon” stage ends for them and yet they continue lying; YES FUCKING LYING; to you, pretending everything is okay but your gut wrenching feeling was right all along.

Asking for honestly, as they look as you as if you’ve shot them with an arrow. Betrayal is being gaslighted, the entire time.. betrayal is having your heart fire fed full of kindling. Knowing you’re dying as they say, “you’ll be fine.”

Asking for loyalty.. when you have the define loyalty. Having to show them what loyalty and purity and absolute compassion is. While he/she is laying next to them and they come up with some bullshit excuse.

Asking for anything.. as we’ve been taught, is wrong.

Then tell me, when they are supposed to message first.

Tell me when, I’m supposed to stop crying myself to sleep because they’ve shown me they won’t leave and ACTUALLY mean it.

Tell me when, it’s supposed to stop hurting because I’m no longer second or third or the last person they think of.

Tell me when, I won’t wake up from a dead sleep in a full blown panic attack because they’ll be right there to hold me.

Tell me when it’s me turn to feel something other than empty.

Why can’t anyone fucking tell me.

little-random-thoughts:

“It’s ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we’ve seen coming.”

—

tearedupeyes:

how naive of me to think that i would ever get better

annalexoudis-deactivated2021021:

lonelynotlonely:

Noone cares about you, trust me. Stop thinking they might, because they don’t. Hoping will do nothing but hurt you.

selena0-0:

I’m so sad in everything I do. I just want to be loved and appreciated…I feel so empty and it’s killing me inside and out.

I’m too fucking broken to be this fucking broken.

borderlinelesbian:

Originally posted by emilydb

sorrowfulnightsdiaries:

I know that not everyone can be happy. It’s just hard to accept you might be one of them.

02.24

deliyimaq:

Originally posted by huzursuzhayaller

“ Gözlerin vardı , bakmak için delirdiğim .”

emptyandlonely:

This music’s the only thing keepin’ the peace when I’m fallin’ to pieces.

a-dark-dead-soul:

The only thing that never lets me down:(